In addition to all the other stuff going on, good bad and indifferent, I'm scheduled for some surgery soon. A week from today, as a matter of fact. I haven't been dwelling on it because I've had way too much else going on to even think about it. That's a God thing. I can obsess pretty well, if I do say so myself. So, I haven't had much time to think about it. Until today. Suddenly, today, it seems huge. I had a serious OHMYGAWD moment this morning and just froze. Now I'm running around like a madwoman trying to get a gazillion things done before I have surgery and have to be off work for 6 weeks. 6 weeks! The last time I took more than a week off work was when I checked myself into the local nut hut for a little detox and some new life skills. I've been working in the same office for 18 years and that was the only time I had ever taken more than just a few days. Until now. But, the surgery is necessary, and I'm going to follow my doctors' advice and take the time I need to heal. Until then, I have a ton of stuff to get started, finished, etc. People to contact, arrangements to make - well, you get the picture. But it will all get done or not, and all I can do is all I can do.
Today I am grateful for:
Having been at my job long enough to have enough sick and vacation time to be able to take all the time I need and not miss a paycheck.
Moments of clarity and their rarity ;-)
A quiet evening to myself.
My wonderful kids who are just human, like their mom. They bring a tremendous amount of joy. Along with pain and sorrow on occasion, but of course, I wouldn't trade any of it. It's all part and parcel.
My friends. I have no worries about being taken care of after my surgery. I've been inundated with offers of help.
Alexis, who doesn't mind wingin' it with me when I forget the box for our Monday meeting. I'm told we pulled it off pretty spectacularly well, and that we managed to entertain a few recently sobered up folks who needed some entertaining that night. Works out just like it's supposed to.
My dog, who loves me unconditionally, and who I will miss terribly while I'm recuperating.
Being so caught up in the mainstream of life. I am so fortunate and so blessed.